A little over thirteen years ago I was a senior in college. I had my dreams and ambitions in front of me and I could almost taste them. I knew who I was and who I wanted to be. I had everything planned out. I would be moving to Chicago in a matter of months to pursue a career in acting. It was well thought and and fool proof. So I thought. Within an instant that all changed. In June I found out I was going to be a mom. A mother. Responsible for someone. It was a shocking time for me because I was not married, had no job and I knew my parents were gonna kill me. I had a choice to make...pursue my own way and the life I thought I deserved or lay them down and choose a life for another. But where I felt shame and heartache, God had a plan to change not only my life but my heart forever. He showed me love. He showed me everything was going to be alright. And He showed me His bountiful and endless grace. March 21, 1999, God gave me Hannah Grace...a double portion of His goodness in one tiny little body. God would use this precious child to to show me what true sacrifice and love really look like. He took something that seemed like the end of my world and blessed me beyond my wildest belief. I would never go back to my "plan" for my life. By giving up one thing I gained everything. I praise God for how He has blessed me. And happy birthday my darling, precious gift. Happy birthday Hannah. I love you so much it hurts. Thank you God for letting me know how that feels.
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